lol...philosophical, maybe ... big words, definately.

lol

The worst part about the last few days has been mainly due to the fact that I couldn't get on-line...even in times of no weed, no money, and no direction, this place seems to be able to make things more managable...even if it only serves as a way of getting stuff off yer chest.

Now I'm back (briefly though it will be) I have an avenue to vent and talk to people who are going through the same kind of shitty existence.

I guess that weed opens a persons mind...and with it, the realisation of how fucked up this planet is.

It's a ying-yang thang, dude lol

One the one hand you see the world in a new light - nature becomes awesome and respectable, thought become deeper and more encompassing, and understanding and awareness is of a level that was beyond our comprehension. A good thing.

Conversely, we see the inadequacies of the ways in which the world works, the injustices that are committed against our fellow man and the planet in which we reside, and a sense of isolation and lonelyness from the majority. A depressive thing.

The futility that we feel is the thing that overwhelms us.
We seek the effects of our beloved plant - not for answers or solutions, but for a way to dull the pain and frustration.

Someone once said that I smoke weed to escape from my reality.
They are wrong.
I do not smoke to escape from reality - I smoke to survive reality.

I often wonder who I would be if I hadn't discovered cannabis...
I sometimes ask myself if I would be a happier person...

But then I realise...the answer would be "No".

Why?

Because I think I am glad that I see my life for what it really is.
I may not like everything about it...some of it drives me insane...some of it makes me wish I was dead...

Even though I have gained an awareness that causes me pain and sadness...
...I have the knowledge that I am not alone...

I have also gained membership into a community of people that constanly remind me that not all humans are selfish, ego-driven, greedy bastards...

I am rich beyond my wildest dreams.

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RESiNATE Reviewed by RESiNATE on . Err...dunno? Hi everyone! I haven't been about for a while, and this is due to the fact that I am slowly slipping into the realms of poverty and depression. I just smashed my mobile phone up because I was annoyed at the bank-robot-telephone-thingy telling me that I have no money. I have no job either, because work has been so lax lately, that I can no longer afford to put petrol in my car...and besides that, it has no MOT...and the cam-belt is in imminent danger of snapping (Ford's after-sales Rating: 5