"Why do I have a sudden hatred for a boy I wanted to marry?"

"he used to really fuck with me emotionally"
"he's an alcoholic... always reeking of booze"
"We have had our share fair of fighting, mostly caused by him"


This is the guy you wanted to marry? :wtf: :question: I'm just wondering why you think this guy is remotely marriageable? He's got his 3 strikes- he's out! Actually, I think your present reaction is way closer to being sensible!

"He makes me cringe, when he tries to fuck me..I get nauseas, when he talks to me I completely ignore him, anything he does is WRONG in my eyes" ( I note that's "fuck", not "make love".)

I think you are simply "wising up" to who he is and who he may become! Your common sense (or higher power) is telling you this is NOT your soulmate! Emotional abuse ( which often leads to physical abuse) + alcoholism + argumentative nature = Something less than an optimal spouse!

If all else fails, change the locks and give him a "Cherokee divorce" -all his stuff outside the door- it's not too hard to get the idea then, even if he is dense! (In the matrilocal Cherokee society, women owned the house and fields, and divorce was just that simple! They also selected the chiefs.)- Anyway, pay attention to your gut feeling, it's usually right- kick him to the curb!

There are far more stoner dudes than gals :thumbsup: - you get to take your pick! No reason to stay with that loser!

Good luck, hon- Granny:hippy: