H.b. said:

I rarely feel wronged, so I guess I don't see this need for forgiving others at all costs, because I rarely have to forgive anyone in the first place. I've surrounded myself with people (by chance, are mostly agnostics and atheists, oddly enough) who are good, we don't need God to be civil toward one another. We care for each other because we care for each other, not because we're enlightened by an outside source.
It's just like it says in scripture,


Luke 6:32-34

32For if ye love them which love you, what thank have ye? for sinners also love those that love them.

33And if ye do good to them which do good to you, what thank have ye? for sinners also do even the same.

34And if ye lend to them of whom ye hope to receive, what thank have ye? for sinners also lend to sinners, to receive as much again.
Everyone has thier own set of rules.Everyone has thier own "love". But God's ules arn't mans rules and God's love isn't mans love.

And of course I don't believe you're being honest with yourself. ANd no one can prove your conscience to you but yourself.