Bro, Im so sorry. I hope you feel better. He wouldn't want you to be depressed about it, he would want you to live life and be happy. I feel so sorry for you. I too am dealing with the lose of a loved one, though in a different way (but I don't wanna hijack your thread, so look for a thread on that maybe in a few days or something, I dunno)

Anyway, I hope you feel better. Im so sorry for you.

Peace, love, And Support, Da Polar Bear