Quote Originally Posted by BlAzInIt4:20
Well I'm going through this stage in my life right now were i feel so alone. I feel as if no one loves me or even cares. Im single now and maybe it's just that. I want my ex back but i know she dosnt want me. Im not even sure how to let her go. I went to her work today and dropped off everything that ever ment anything to me in front of her door. I can no longer have her around i feel like it's killing me inside. I try to release my feelings but it doesn't seem to be working. Iv been working every day trying to keep myself busy. iv been partying talking to other people and it's not even working. She said she didnt want anything to dow ith me, so i just told her okay... At that moment hearing those words out of the persons mouth that i love.. I felt apart of me die inside.. okay well i have to go to work now..
OK, BlazinIt, I'm going to step out on a limb here and ask whether you're looking for someone on the outside to provide what really needs to be intrinsic validation you give yourself? I wonder that because I've read your stories about your ex's nasty treatment of you, and I tend to think that if you felt stronger and more confident in yourself, felt better about your life, and were more comfortable being on your own, you wouldn't be apt to feel so lonely or grieve about the passing of a relationship that was neither healthy nor happy.

I'm certain there are people who care deeply about you. You've heard from several very kind ones here. But my hunch tells me the person who needs to learn to care the most about is you yourself. When you start to like yourself, you'll be more comfortable being alone, will be able to reassure yourself that occasional phases of loneliness are temporary and normal, and you'll avoid hooking up with--and mourning for--romantic partners who don't treat you as well as you deserve.