I honestly believe I was in love with each of my boyfriends, all in a different way. I'm not confusing "loving" with "being in love", trust me. When I was younger, it was more of an obsessive kind of love, making sure I was always pleasing my partner in every way, trying to be the best girlfriend I could be (and usually succeeding). I loved every single thing about them, every flaw, even their fuck-ups. The most "in love" I've ever been was was either with my last boyfriend (not current) or the one before that. They both ended pretty badly, which sucks. Now, as I've gotten older and more experienced I don't fall in love as easily, actually..it's quite difficult for me to fall in love at this stage in my life. In my current relationship, I love him but I'm not IN love with him, which I prefer. I'm kind of a love freak, to be honest..or was. I fell so hard and so fast.