This is my first significant post and tonight something has happened that I have to make a decision by tomorow, like it or not, that will change my future I BEG YOU, PLEASE read this long post that I have been writing while tears have been running down my face....

I am 19 years old, live in Dallas, Tx and I am a part time waiter-student who is living with my dad. For the past 2 years I have been diagnosed with a rare disease, Hidretinitous Suppurativa, which, long story short, gives me very, very painfull boils around my groin and anus area, which are also very embarrising. I have been on and off pain pills, to the point where they don't help, im on humira, remacade, accutaine, you name it, and nothing helps my pain, nausua, you name it, as much as Mary Jane.

I have been smoking in disreet at my dad's and tonight, he confronted me about knowing that i've been smoking. He is an alcohalic, like it or not, and tonight he was drunk, just like any other evening. Anyways, I am getting a S.C.S. (Spinal Cord Stimulator) put in on the 30th to help my pain and I am very excited. However tonight, my dad threatened and hounded me (Drunk), that he smoked as a kid, and that "Pot" does no good and will lead me nowhere. I tried telling him about how much the plant helps me and I told him about the research I did, and his reply was "I dont care about no fucking research, it's either the surgury or this, and if you decide to continue smoking you can't live here anymore and you have until tomorow when i come home from work to give me an answer, pot or the surgery, but you just cant keep on living like this son."


I have such a dilemma in my hands, i really don't know who else to go to besides you guys and god, as my family is the exact same way as my dad. I know i will never quit smoking because of the wonders it does but I cant simply can't afford to move out on my own. This is because I have to stay off work for 2 months after the procedure cause I can't lift anything (Waiter) and I have about $500.

Please help, Im about to say a long prayer to god, and go to sleep if I can, as my dad took my weed and vape and it helps me sleep I've never been this lonely before in my entire life over something so innocent as cannabis. I'm seriously thinking about going to my doctor tomorow and asking him, as it seems doctors may be the only person that I can go to that will know the answers. Ill rep anyone that posts or whatever i dont care, i just need some advice. Thank you for reading and god bless.
UTD Toker Reviewed by UTD Toker on . My friends, Im in tears having to make THE toughest decision of my life This is my first significant post and tonight something has happened that I have to make a decision by tomorow, like it or not, that will change my future :( I BEG YOU, PLEASE read this long post that I have been writing while tears have been running down my face.... I am 19 years old, live in Dallas, Tx and I am a part time waiter-student who is living with my dad. For the past 2 years I have been diagnosed with a rare disease, Hidretinitous Suppurativa, which, long story short, gives me Rating: 5