Should I find her?

[xblackdogx]

go for it if you can start anew without judging the past
put your energy on the harmonious future with her

[crudemood]

You shoult totally find her, life is lived better w/o regrets.

[Lankan Lion]

Ahhhh maaan my "romantic comedy with meg ryan" sense is burning off the charts right now!

lol but seriously, if you think this is something thats a real possibility then go with whatever feels right to you

[GraziLovesMary]

Awwww....that's so sad.... forbidden love....

Such is life and love and the nature of things. :-\

I would rather have known her and missed out than to have never known her at all. Much like all the people I love. I fall in love way to easily lol. Thats probably why I am staying away from relationships... Ive fallen in love with all women at this point and... fuck I dont even know lol

[Spoken Word]

^You sure it's love grazi??? Cause im the same way. Maybe it's infatuation....or that we like the way they make us feel...maybe strong feelings, even. but real love??? i've never felt that...

and yea geo.....if she's worth it....then, you both deserve it. find her.

[Doodlebug5]

I have one of those, a guy in my case. I've been married for 15 years and he left me several times but came back, plus I took him back. Last separation I met someone awesome... but I let him down because I went back with my husband in an instant. It has been about six years now, I do keep in touch with him and see him occasionally, but he has a girlfriend, he doesn't seem happy with her, but he stays with her. I'm separated once again, probably the last time and I can only think about the one I let go for the one I'm married to who is now dating everyone all over town and I'm left alone.

[HighTillIDie]

grazi... i was in the same boat... except i ended up sleeping with the married chick... heh

and OF COURSE you should.... why ask you? i'll tell you why. Because my life is only mildly entertaining, and i need to live vicariously through those around me. OH and, because you want to..

of course, i completely agree with "once a problem, always a problem"... so both of yall would have to change...

you could do what i have done in the almost exact situation, start back a relationship, get to know her, realize she hasn't changed, nor does she think she needs and/or wants to, still fuck her... AND get closure

remember, the fairy tale isn't that magical in real life

[geonagual]

I didnt forget about this thread...I did send her an email 2 days ago to the last email address I had for her..shit, I was nervous is doing that..well see...it is still weak at best.

[Doodlebug5]

I didn't even reply to you on your original post, I just went on with my guy I let go, sorry.

It is hard to say. I find myself trying not to live in the past but to live for today. It is hard because I'm really sad right at this moment. I'm wondering if it is best to just let the past go especially if it didn't work.

But you seem so into this person, I guess it couldn't hurt to give it a shot. It also seems like you want to find someone really bad. I stay in contact with my guy, hoping he would call it quits with his current girlfriend, but I can't waste my life waiting and wishing that. He knows I'm separated from my husband again but doesnt trust that it is for good this time.

Hope things work out for you, the way you would like them to.

[ghosty]

Yeah I had two also, one of them I found out really did like me too and I never took the chance.. However she's now happily married and I'm sure is doing well. So I'm happy for her.

The other one, I asked to a dance once and she turned it down, kinda... I found out later what she had tried to say is that she wanted to hang out sometimes but didnt want to go to a dance as they weren't really her thing and that she actually kinda liekd me to. Too bad one of her freinds decided to tell me this after graduation. (Why do you chicks have to make things so difficult?)... She was gorgeous and a really fun girl. I still wonder about her from time to time. I think all guys have that one that got away that still kinda haunts us from time to time.