Nothing goin' on in that department. I have huge wounds being heeled as I speak. Not a good time to find a new relationship, not until I become strong once again.

I dedicated my heart to someone for 15 years, it has been hard. But I really wanted to make it work. Making sure our kids were taken care of and provided for is a huge stance in my life, but I got accused of not being spauntanious. I am...but there are responsibilities that have to be taken care of first.

This person that I loved for so long has moved out and moved on with his life. Dating like crazy and it seams his biggest goal is to "find someone". He has all the free time to party and search out that special someone. I on the other had keep my life packed with taking care of our kids and doing my best to keep them stable and have a nice life. I love them and it is not a problem. I find myself not having time for myself. So on the quiet days, I feel extremely lonely. I miss my ex alot sometimes, because he was still my best friend and I always want to pick up the phone to see how he is doing, but I also want to be a complete void for him too. I know he doesn't think of me as his best friend anymore and it hurts really bad.