Epiphanies about myself and girls my age.

[ScaryMissMary]

So Im sitting here sober as fuck and Ive had one of the best epiphanies of my young life. I just posted this on myspace, its basically a vent about myself and girls my age. Its not directed at anyone inparticular its just a general consensus. I just wanted to share it with people.

"EPIPHANIES. I had one, a real big one about twenty minutes ago. There is so much swirling around in my head I wish I could write it all down but theres just so much and its so complex. That statement sounds so dumb but its the truth.

EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU has faults, myself included of course. ALL OF US DO NONE OF US ARE PERFECT SO WHY DO WE ALL FEEL THE NEED TO CAST JUDGEMENT ON EACHOTHER?


Im going to do what basically every girl I know needs to do. I AM NOT GOING TO BE THE 21 YEAR OLD GIRL that everyone acts like. I swear my mind is matured way beyond my years but my "age" takes over most of the time. Im sick of it and I am now actively working to change myself. See, I believe that ANYONE can change, but they have to want to and I do. People in their twenties are selfish, as nice of a person you think you are selfishness is still present in your demenor. I realize this and I am going to "man up" and work against it within myself. Sure you may say "im not, i matured" Fuck that, you still are your ego is just in the way. Thats another thing, egos... oh they are inflated nowadays. I from now on am going to keep mine in check. Im no better than anybody and neither are you.
Another thing: Games. I HATE PLAYING GAMES IM SORRY IF IT SEEMS LIKE I AM PLAYING ONE BUT I AM NOT. Especially when its with people I LOVE. That is the last thing I want to do. All I want is for the PEOPLE I LOVE to be HAPPY. I am completely sincere when I say that too.

My self esteem has been shot lately but damnit Im building it back up. Desperation, low self esteem: these are bad things and noone likes an over eager bitch. A reasonable amount of confidence is sexy, CONCEIDEDNESS IS NOT. Either work to get what you want, either by bettering yourself or your situation, or accept what you have. There's no magic to it; you get what you position yourself to get. It's just that simple.

I am a smart, strong, beautiful mature woman with a good head on her shoulders. I just haven't been acting like one for a long time, but you know what?

MARY'S BACK MOTHERFUCKERS AND SHES FUCKING AMAZING.

You'll see.. "

ScaryMissMary Reviewed by ScaryMissMary on 08-15-2007. Epiphanies about myself and girls my age. So Im sitting here sober as fuck and Ive had one of the best epiphanies of my young life. I just posted this on myspace, its basically a vent about myself and girls my age. Its not directed at anyone inparticular its just a general consensus. I just wanted to share it with people. "EPIPHANIES. I had one, a real big one about twenty minutes ago. There is so much swirling around in my head I wish I could write it all down but theres just so much and its so complex. That statement sounds so Rating: 5

[GraziLovesMary]

So Im sitting here sober as fuck and Ive had one of the best epiphanies of my young life. I just posted this on myspace, its basically a vent about myself and girls my age. Its not directed at anyone inparticular its just a general consensus. I just wanted to share it with people.

"EPIPHANIES. I had one, a real big one about twenty minutes ago. There is so much swirling around in my head I wish I could write it all down but theres just so much and its so complex. That statement sounds so dumb but its the truth.

EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU has faults, myself included of course. ALL OF US DO NONE OF US ARE PERFECT SO WHY DO WE ALL FEEL THE NEED TO CAST JUDGEMENT ON EACHOTHER?


Im going to do what basically every girl I know needs to do. I AM NOT GOING TO BE THE 21 YEAR OLD GIRL that everyone acts like. I swear my mind is matured way beyond my years but my "age" takes over most of the time. Im sick of it and I am now actively working to change myself. See, I believe that ANYONE can change, but they have to want to and I do. People in their twenties are selfish, as nice of a person you think you are selfishness is still present in your demenor. I realize this and I am going to "man up" and work against it within myself. Sure you may say "im not, i matured" Fuck that, you still are your ego is just in the way. Thats another thing, egos... oh they are inflated nowadays. I from now on am going to keep mine in check. Im no better than anybody and neither are you.
Another thing: Games. I HATE PLAYING GAMES IM SORRY IF IT SEEMS LIKE I AM PLAYING ONE BUT I AM NOT. Especially when its with people I LOVE. That is the last thing I want to do. All I want is for the PEOPLE I LOVE to be HAPPY. I am completely sincere when I say that too.

My self esteem has been shot lately but damnit Im building it back up. Desperation, low self esteem: these are bad things and noone likes an over eager bitch. A reasonable amount of confidence is sexy, CONCEIDEDNESS IS NOT. Either work to get what you want, either by bettering yourself or your situation, or accept what you have. There's no magic to it; you get what you position yourself to get. It's just that simple.

I am a smart, strong, beautiful mature woman with a good head on her shoulders. I just haven't been acting like one for a long time, but you know what?

MARY'S BACK MOTHERFUCKERS AND SHES FUCKING AMAZING.

You'll see.. "

Yes she is...

Very intelligent words, Mary my dear! Your epiphany is rather accurate of people these days if I do say so myself. All we can do is try our damnedest to recognize, and then distinguish these negative traits within ourselves.

You are a very intelligent and amazing person

[Spoken Word]

well, if it means anything to you.. i agree with almost everything you said.
im 20 so i'm going through the same stage. doesn't it feel good to at least think you are moving in a positive direction in life?
it's like you get ridiculed and put down by others all day, everyday but when you're alone, your thoughts and reflections seem so right. but like you said, everyone is so judgemental. but what else do you expect? we are a bunch of humans sharing the same world. we are BOUND to criticize, compare and pass judgement. maybe to make ourselves feel better. i dunno..
all we can do is try to humble ourselves and live life to the fullest.

keep reflecting on life and putting your thoughts to words. it really helps us get through the bad times.

[khronik]

Reminds me of an old saying.

Great people talk about ideas.
Average people talk about things.
Small people talk about other people.

Sure, it may seem trite and oversimplified, but all my experience has revealed it to be very true.

[couch-potato]

Reminds me of an old saying.

Great people talk about ideas.
Average people talk about things.
Small people talk about other people.

Sure, it may seem trite and oversimplified, but all my experience has revealed it to be very true.

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++rep omglol

[Storm Crow]

Way to go girl! :thumbsup:- Granny:hippy: