My wife left me... So I got high

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Depressed.... I dont know. I took on mental disorders for a wile. To me it just sound like is is F!@king lazy man.

Igot you must have missed driveby's follow up post to mine:

She's been to the doctor and is on antidepressants. I think she's bipolar though moreso than depressed. The psychiatrists refuse to see her because we don't have money or insurance.

Driveby that's tough because obviously she needs to be treated properly before you can decide your future but the writing is on the wall.

I love her, and if I leave her, I don't want everyone to tell me "I told you so" and everyone to think of me as a failure. I can't handle that..

Sometimes our best actions only result in rearranging deck chairs on the Titanic. Would you rather keep this up for another few years only to end up leaving her and then have everyone tell you "Wow, we really told you so?" Get her some help soon so that you can make a proper decision on your future.