^thanks. I know it's him not me, but I feel like it is me, to the point where it makes me cry. I need to let him go, but I cant and I know I wont.

He has a job! Makes more than me! And lives with his mommy. I live on my own and support myself. so much wrong here.

I also wouldntt mind giving him things and doing things for him, but he isnt even thoguhtful in return. Oral is free! And he slaps me in the face and says NO! When we have been together months and he did it once for about a minute. and i never ask. and i had the balls to, because I keep my thoughts to myself. he makes me feel so ugly.