Im done ... Last night he made me cry forever and I was laying next to him and I dont think he noticed and if he did he didnt care. hes going away soon and I wish I could stay with him but this will be just what I need to get away from him. hes like a robot he has no feelings. he is so selfish and i dont kno why i wasted so much time with him. im going to hang out with him until he leaves, but after last nite i dont even think i can fuck him. i told him to call me so we could actually have a conversation for once, and we didnt. im tired of being used. and I really hope I find it in me to not let this break up make me depressed because thats where it's going. I dont understand why it's so hard to find a good guy. I do like myself for the most part, I know i look good, and I think I have a good personality, I'm fun and giving, but for some reason the only thing guys pick up on is my doormat qualities. im just not going to look and hope the man of my dreams shows up.

and grazil i thought that you were moving to be with that lady of yours somewhere?