You need to get out of this relationship and get out of it now. You want to but I hear some fear in your response, fear of the unknown or maybe being alone. Get out now, the longer it goes one, the harder it will be. Set yourself free, there are 3 billion men on this Earth, you will find someone else.

[align=center]We all have a sickness
That cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how hard we try[/align]

He is your sickness and he is sucking the life out of you. You will feel so much better if you do, like you are reborn.