I feel so drained and used

[geonagual]

Grazi, Columbus huh? Damn dude...you came on too late...the hottest chick to ever grace these boards left b4 you got here and you are in her stomping grounds...she would of made even you, blush...haha

Misshightimes...baby, there is the perfect man out there for you...you just need to look around.

[Storm Crow]

When we lose something we grieve for a while. We get hurt and angry. Hold on to that anger! Use it to transform yourself into the strong woman we all have within us! Dang- I gotta go- friend needs me in court- I'll get back to you later tonight! We are all stronger than we give ourselves credit for! You are going to get through this with a little help from your friends!- Granny:hippy:

[GraziLovesMary]

Grazi, Columbus huh? Damn dude...you came on too late...the hottest chick to ever grace these boards left b4 you got here and you are in her stomping grounds...she would of made even you, blush...haha

Misshightimes...baby, there is the perfect man out there for you...you just need to look around.

Lol thanks for letting me know what Ive missed. The thought will forever torment my dreams now. Congratulations.



P.S. where the fuck did she go? lmao Im just playin, it doesnt matter anyway, prob for the best. Im not getting involved in a relationship if I can help it, Im set on going to Thailand and Shao Lin

[geonagual]

Lol thanks for letting me know what Ive missed. The thought will forever torment my dreams now. Congratulations.



P.S. where the fuck did she go? lmao Im just playin, it doesnt matter anyway, prob for the best. Im not getting involved in a relationship if I can help it, Im set on going to Thailand and Shao Lin

I am not going to say her name..cause she didnt want anyone to know where she lived (cause of growing)...I knew though...I was so close to visiting her when I was back in Ohio at the beginning of the year...but shit didnt work out. she does have a boyfriend that she planned on marrying...but that didnt keep her flirtiness down...damn she was cool.....come back girl...I am sure many people miss you on here...

[khronik]

I'm not saying this is you, but I've known a girl who has such low self-esteem that she cannot be in a relationship that isn't abusive. If a guy is too nice to her, she'll get the idea into her head that there must be something wrong with him, since he likes her.

I dont understand why it's so hard to find a good guy. I do like myself for the most part, I know i look good, and I think I have a good personality, I'm fun and giving, but for some reason the only thing guys pick up on is my doormat qualities. im just not going to look and hope the man of my dreams shows up.

It seems like you might be attracted to guys like your boyfriend because they give you a lot of attention at first. Maybe they are very persistent, and you have a hard time saying no.

If you really want to meet nice guys, try going to parties at engineering schools. They're all like 90% guys. Or you could go to a public LAN party (where they play video games). Or you could post a profile and a picture on a personals site like craigslist. There are millions of guys out there who are nice and considerate and single, but a lot of times they are kind of shy, and so they might be attracted to venues like personal sites. How do you normally meet guys? Do you just go with the guys that will come up to you and hit on you out of the blue?

[kdspecial]

Its nothing you haven't herd before but......

It's time.... time for the dreaded talk.... the talk where you call some of the shots... And stick to your Guns Gurl/////

It need to end... It wont be pretty but It will get better with time.

He will tell you he will change and that he'll respect you etc. But untill you change He wont....

SO cut your loses... Call it a learning experience, Take a deep breath and tell him you want a Break. You want to be left alone. No emails No phone no nothing, No Face book or MSN-AIM.

And don't break down and call him... Let him call you cuz he will. right away too... Don't answer it will only make the healing process harder. I bet 2 weeks goes by and you'll feel like a new women, have more respect foryourself and you'll be glad you had the experience. Cuz you'll be closer to yourself and your needs and wants.

It somtimes take s abit of hurt to get some Good....

And when you look at it all,,, Your already hurting.. So you might as well Get the hurt that will reward you in the end...

Stay Strong gurl... Its not going to be easy... But it will definitly be well worth it...

kd

[xblackdogx]

I'm sorry for venting about my life on here so much but I have a long work day on the computer, and too much time to think. I feel so used by my boyfriend, I feel like all I do is give give give to everyone, and I am left feeling drained. I've been running on E for alittle while now, and shits about to fall apart. Even though things have been good with us I stll cant help but feel taken advantage of. After sucking his dick, and smoking him up on a blunt, he asks to pinch some of my weed. after the firs ttime he does it agian. This is all after I buy him concert tickets -- which he said he would pay me back for but neevr does. -- he has NEVER taken me out to eat. The one time we ate toegter not at our houses I PAYED! last nite was the last straw though. Not only did i give him head, let him do me any way he wanted, let him smoke 4 of the blunts that I payed and rolled! but then I ask him to eat me out and he says no! I dont kno why him saying no is making me so depressed but it is. The one thing! The one thing i ask for, and he says no! Not only does that make me feel used agian, but it makes me feel ugly and unworthy. i want to go cry about it. i need to end it. but I know no matter what anyone says i wont be strong enough to. how fucked up is that though. then once he finished fucking me in a way that wasnt very comforatble for me, and letting him cum on my face which i dont like at all (it makes me feel degraded) he ate ALL of the food in my apartment. which i cant afford. he said he will buy me more. but i know he wont. i thougth venting would help me feel better, but im afraid it just confirmed the fact that I'm pathetic.

Hi! It's unfortunate that your effort and time didn't get you where you want to be with that guy. Listen to these kind, considerate people at Cannabis.com who are reminding you of your worth, and never talk to this guy again.

From your other posts on this thread it seems like you are still in a bad mood, which I want to turn around. While I can't replace your boyfriend, as I'm leaving Philly for 9 months (leaving in a week), I would be willing to smoke you up and converse about everything but that asshole over a dinner that I'll cook. I'm know you're a wonderful girl, I can introduce you to some of my friends if you want.

[420MissHighTimes420]

I'm not saying this is you, but I've known a girl who has such low self-esteem that she cannot be in a relationship that isn't abusive. If a guy is too nice to her, she'll get the idea into her head that there must be something wrong with him, since he likes her.



It seems like you might be attracted to guys like your boyfriend because they give you a lot of attention at first. Maybe they are very persistent, and you have a hard time saying no.

If you really want to meet nice guys, try going to parties at engineering schools. They're all like 90% guys. Or you could go to a public LAN party (where they play video games). Or you could post a profile and a picture on a personals site like craigslist. There are millions of guys out there who are nice and considerate and single, but a lot of times they are kind of shy, and so they might be attracted to venues like personal sites. How do you normally meet guys? Do you just go with the guys that will come up to you and hit on you out of the blue?

I am attracted to guys like my boyfriend, well basically guys like my dad, who I have to fight really hard to get attention from, i never had any attention at all from my dad growing up, so now when I have a guy who doesn't give me attention - but sometimes does - the times wen he does, are the reasons Im with him, because I feel liek I was good enough to get the attention. I need to work on being secure with myself, I cant keep seeking validation from guys like I do.

And every guy I have ever dated I met in highschool. Or through a friend in highschool. I wanted to meet some new guys so I took this art class and ddin't meet anyone -- it was mostly women go figure, lesbian women too but Im not ready for that lol. I lve in a big city with a lot of hot young professionals so I feel like it shouldnt be that hard. Ive been working here for the past month, and moved down abbout 2 weeks ago, and have yet to me a single person! Wtfffff Im good looking - or at least I think so - so why dont guys come up to me more? I get nothing more than a hey baby or a wave . and ladies u no wut im talking about it only the old creepers who hit on you! wut is that?!

[420MissHighTimes420]

Hi! It's unfortunate that your effort and time didn't get you where you want to be with that guy. Listen to these kind, considerate people at Cannabis.com who are reminding you of your worth, and never talk to this guy again.

From your other posts on this thread it seems like you are still in a bad mood, which I want to turn around. While I can't replace your boyfriend, as I'm leaving Philly for 9 months (leaving in a week), I would be willing to smoke you up and converse about everything but that asshole over a dinner that I'll cook. I'm know you're a wonderful girl, I can introduce you to some of my friends if you want.

Im a bit hesitant of meeting people off of the internet, but I know NO ONE in this city, and I think I would be open to it -- espicially if its through someone on this site. edit :IM me at chelss80 and we can chat about it there, Im online all day 9 - 5 30 at work.

[Reefer Rogue]

It seems to me like you have absolutely no confidence in yourself anymore. You're lacking self esteem. It's actually frustrating to read this and know you're probably still with him. For God's sake DUMP HIM! Are you afraid of him? You're obviously petrified of something. You have these thoughs that the breakup will be bad.. It's completely the opposite, it will be great for you. I advise you tell this dickhead off before you dump him, but reading this thread, you don't seem strong enough to do what you KNOW you have to do.