I feel so drained and used

[420MissHighTimes420]

I'm sorry for venting about my life on here so much but I have a long work day on the computer, and too much time to think. I feel so used by my boyfriend, I feel like all I do is give give give to everyone, and I am left feeling drained. I've been running on E for alittle while now, and shits about to fall apart. Even though things have been good with us I stll cant help but feel taken advantage of. After sucking his dick, and smoking him up on a blunt, he asks to pinch some of my weed. after the firs ttime he does it agian. This is all after I buy him concert tickets -- which he said he would pay me back for but neevr does. -- he has NEVER taken me out to eat. The one time we ate toegter not at our houses I PAYED! last nite was the last straw though. Not only did i give him head, let him do me any way he wanted, let him smoke 4 of the blunts that I payed and rolled! but then I ask him to eat me out and he says no! I dont kno why him saying no is making me so depressed but it is. The one thing! The one thing i ask for, and he says no! Not only does that make me feel used agian, but it makes me feel ugly and unworthy. i want to go cry about it. i need to end it. but I know no matter what anyone says i wont be strong enough to. how fucked up is that though. then once he finished fucking me in a way that wasnt very comforatble for me, and letting him cum on my face which i dont like at all (it makes me feel degraded) he ate ALL of the food in my apartment. which i cant afford. he said he will buy me more. but i know he wont. i thougth venting would help me feel better, but im afraid it just confirmed the fact that I'm pathetic.

420MissHighTimes420 Reviewed by 420MissHighTimes420 on 08-13-2007. I feel so drained and used I'm sorry for venting about my life on here so much but I have a long work day on the computer, and too much time to think. I feel so used by my boyfriend, I feel like all I do is give give give to everyone, and I am left feeling drained. I've been running on E for alittle while now, and shits about to fall apart. Even though things have been good with us I stll cant help but feel taken advantage of. After sucking his dick, and smoking him up on a blunt, he asks to pinch some of my weed. after Rating: 5

[Ganj]

Sounds like the same selfish, inconsiderate crap I do. Sure he might be charming and boyishly cute, but he's also a handful and given your current state of exhaustion, you might want to begin looking for someone who is at least going to push their weight, and not take you for granted.

[DarkHairedSativa]

Oh,you are worth so much more...Does he have a job?? If so tell him to buy his own shit....but I know how you feel about the no answer...I get that too at times and t always make me feel like somethings wrong with me.I don't get the thought process going on in their heads...Maybe there is none.But I would seriously tell him how you feel no matter how hard it is and tell him he needs to pay for and eat/smoke his own shit.If he doesn't like it he knows where the door is,if that's his choice,but he might not take the out.Ya never know.There is no way it's going to get better though if you don't say anything....

Good luck sweety!!

[Ganj]

You could tell him things like that all you want but it wont sink in until he goes without.

[psteve]

Is this still the same lame fool who's been using you for a doormat since last month?
Let me just say this, again...
You get what you settle for.
And as for the oral, if he cared AT ALL about you, there would be NO QUESTION. You wouldn't have to ask for it,
you'd have to ask him to stop.
Dump The Chump.

[420MissHighTimes420]

^thanks. I know it's him not me, but I feel like it is me, to the point where it makes me cry. I need to let him go, but I cant and I know I wont.

He has a job! Makes more than me! And lives with his mommy. I live on my own and support myself. so much wrong here.

I also wouldntt mind giving him things and doing things for him, but he isnt even thoguhtful in return. Oral is free! And he slaps me in the face and says NO! When we have been together months and he did it once for about a minute. and i never ask. and i had the balls to, because I keep my thoughts to myself. he makes me feel so ugly.

[Ganj]

I hope I'm not hi-jacking the thread, but don't women have chump-vision? How did you get caught up with this guy in the first place, missy?

[420MissHighTimes420]

Is this still the same lame fool who's been using you for a doormat since last month?
Let me just say this, again...
You get what you settle for.
And as for the oral, if he cared AT ALL about you, there would be NO QUESTION. You wouldn't have to ask for it,
you'd have to ask him to stop.
Dump The Chump.

how the hell do i get strong enough to do that?
and yes its the same guy from last month, the month before, and the year befor that.

[inbud]

they guy is taking advantage of you.....you see it, yet do nothing...there are many good men out there...finding one is kinda hard with a low self image, you are worth way more, tell yourself that every day till you come to beleive it...he wont pay now..he wont pay ever...and sex should be fun, not something that makes you mad....there are really good men out there......but you got to kiss some frogs i guess to find the prince...good luck.

[Ganj]

You already have the strength. Let mama's boy go already.