has anyone had to deal with the loss of a loved one?

[c of green]

I would get more into things but i'm not alone and don't like people to see me cry but.......lost my dad to cancer when i was eleven,lost my brother to violence before that and one friend hung himself.alchohol and violence where how i coped.then i found marijuana to calm the anger and my pregnant wife helps me look to the future more so than the past.