Sorry this is long.. as I was typing it I realized I've just never really expressed how I felt about losing my grandpa... I dont expect anyone to read all of it.

I lost my grandpa who I was close to, when I was about 16, he was my only grandpa I ever really knew, as my other grandpa died shortly before I was born ... He had dementia, which led to his brain basically shutting down, it was really sad near the last few years to see him slip away more and more. I remember everytime, I came over, at one point we would have the same conversation. "What grade are you in again?", "Are your grades ok?", and finally "How old are you again?" It used to annoy me having to repeat it all the time, until I got a little older and realized how much that conversation meant to him. He asked those same questions, to me and all my cousins because it meant so much to him, that he never forgot. He wanted to keep it fresh in his mind, sometimes he even knew the answers, and would respond assuringly with "I thought so" . My mom and uncles didnt want me and my little cousins to see him on the condition he was in in the hospital because they wanted our memories of him to be of when he was looking better, so I never got to visit him before he died. He always had dementia through my whole life, but it wasn't as bad in my younger years, it got progressively worse as I got older. I have good memories of him when I was younger and he would take me places with my grandma... I love hearing the stories my grandma, mom, uncles and older cousins tell about him... Although I was only around for the later part of his life, I know he was a great man in his better days, he was the president of 2 hospitals at one point... he still was a great man for what I knew of him too... It was funny despite slowly having his brain and short term memory become null, he could still remember things from when he was younger, in amazingly vivid detail... like where he was exactly on many famous dates, even what he ate for lunch that day etc.. all of his stories were in such detail... He had to have had a photographic memory at one point.... I miss him a lot whenever I think about it, we all do.

R.I.P. Grandpa Frank


P.S. Slip, if you want help with them nightmares come find me on AIM... with a little help you could make those into positive dreams about your bro.
ghosty Reviewed by ghosty on . has anyone had to deal with the loss of a loved one? i know theres a few people on here, that have lost very close family members... but i was just wonder how everyone has delt with the loss of those family members and friends.... for me... i basicaly started using alot of drugs and alcohal, to cope with loosing my grandpa, who made me the man i am today... and started using more drugs when my cusian/aunt(we consider he our aunt because of her age, and also because of how close i am to her sons, her oldest one in perticular...) but Rating: 5