After some thought, I think some of this insecure idea comes from a bad experience with my first real relationship. I'l try to sum it up. First relationship, thought I was in love for about a year and a half. New Years eve, all her girls were getting together so I told her I wouldnt be offended if she really wanted to go with them, elsewhere. We went our separate ways, which landed me in a bed with 3 very pretty bisexual chicks. I wont go into detail in fear of people masterbating to this post(lol), but I will say that these girls were freaks! I, on the otherhand was SOOOOO fucking loyal/ignorant that I proceded to lay on my stomach and keep my dick out of range, knowing that if it came out, well, probably wouldnt have been so loyal Anyways, I participated in NO sexual activities that night so I was feeling kinda good about myself and seeing my girl. So i called her, she says "we've got to talk..."
Well, that was it. My heart broke, and honestly I think as stupid as it sounds, this has affected me subconciously for the past 7 years until now. Maybe, thanks to this good weed helping me realize this, I can get over it, if it is in fact an issue!