my relationship with marijuana in my opinion is not un healthy. my relationship with all the other drugs ive done was unhealthy but i realized thankfully in time that i was not gonna destroy myself over the actions of someone else. i have love in my life, my sister,my friends, my former best friends mom, no romantic love but im now a commitmentphobe so even tho there is a man who loves me, and i might love if only i let myself. But i dont want to ruin his life with my drama. besides i dont know how to tell him. i know i dont want pity from anyone, and i probably need lots and lots of therapy but im not strong enough yet to deal with it all. i used to be so angry, about everything, i thought the world had it in for me. then i found marijuana and my goddess and i think im in the best place im gonna be considering.