This wall u speak of, I know well. When you've been hurt as i have, all I have to protect my self and the only thing thats keeping me from clumbling like stone is that wall I place around my heart. I know thats life, but no one should have to go through what I did and I'm not talking abt "my high school boyfriend leaving me" situation. When ur innocence is taken away against ur will, and the person who's supposed to protect u doesnt give a shit and turns a blind eye will do that to u. I know I have to live with it for the rest of my life, and that it wasnt my fault, I watch Oprah, but nothing no one could ever say will make the past go away. Thankfully i found weed, otherwise i think id go insane. Thanks for ur concern guys and ur kind words but i think its too late for me and im only 23 ha. ima go cry and smoke a bowl. peace - Hilder