Quote Originally Posted by Hilder420
This wall u speak of, I know well. When you've been hurt as i have, all I have to protect my self and the only thing thats keeping me from clumbling like stone is that wall I place around my heart. I know thats life, but no one should have to go through what I did and I'm not talking abt "my high school boyfriend leaving me" situation. When ur innocence is taken away against ur will, and the person who's supposed to protect u doesnt give a shit and turns a blind eye will do that to u. I know I have to live with it for the rest of my life, and that it wasnt my fault, I watch Oprah, but nothing no one could ever say will make the past go away. Thankfully i found weed, otherwise i think id go insane. Thanks for ur concern guys and ur kind words but i think its too late for me and im only 23 ha. ima go cry and smoke a bowl. peace - Hilder

You will never feel better if you just go smoke a bowl to make the pain go away. It will cause you to have not only an unhealthy relationship with marijuana, but probably most people you meet in the course of the rest of your life. I don't know what happened to you and I'm sure it is something horrible I wouldn't be able to understand, but you can't give up on yourself so easily. It will probably take a good amount of time for the pain to fade but life is too beautiful to let it pass you by. Go out and live and find love.