I had a major spiritual experience about 5 years ago. It made a "burning bush" look like firefly. Since then, I experience very "real and visceral" dreams. Almost all have imbedded symbolism that is impossible to mis-understand. On occasion I'm also shown near future events that I'll be participating in.
We're all on the path. Some fast some slower. The answer to our fears is always the same... True forgivness!
Be willing to look at even more (fear) and remember to be "defensless" at the door! Good job, Good luck