It's obvious I'm having trouble facing this issue 'head-on,' as any inclining one way or the other leaves me discouraged and indifferent. I do not want to be gay, and I do not want be anxious or worry around my male friends. Where are those 'pearls of wisdom' when you need them?

By the way, thank you all. Somehow my threads manage to summon the most compassionate individuals. Your hearts must be made of gold.