Well birdgirl, I have had three different sexual partners (all women). And no, my mother always left it up to me to make my own decisions in life, which is probably why I'm a bit indecisive at times...?

There was one occasion though that I believe I was taken advantage of in an unconscious state. However, I have dismissed that notion as irrational and delusional. The suspected culprit was one of my close friends. We did a lot of drugs together and this one particular weekend in question is a little hazy in my mind. I don't remember what happened that week but thoughts that I gave someone oral sex arise when friends make homosexual jokes, that seemingly designating this particular evening as the root of the joke. It's like a dream to me now that I was giving myself oral sex but seeing as how that is impossible...who got the blowjob?

It gets loads more complicated when those thoughts come into play. "Did I really do that and I'm just repressing the memory?" I try not to let it get me down though. If I did do something like that, then I will accept it for what it is. However, if I didn't you could only imagine the confusion that follows such delusions.