StormCrow absolutely has the right idea. The last few weeks I was having such bad anxiety I was waking up every night with panic attacks and barely holding myself together. Almost had total mental breakdown, possibly would have had to kill myself, institutionalize myself, or turn to some very bad drugs.

This past week I've been in a 100% possitive, clear, and can-do mindset while accomplishing everything I want to. This is because I finally realized that I had to do something, change everything, and get my mind together. I did so by using some deep contemplative meditation after smoking some salvia. I realized after that one meditation, and still understand it with 100% clarity, that it's all about redirecting. After understanding the perception of hapiness, the perception of knowing I can do anything, I took all the stress and anxiety and redirected it into energy for possitive things. Even if I didn't feel it, I'd know what this mindset looks like and forced myself to work toward it whether I wanted it or not.

Take StormCrow's advice people, because I discovered this myself and have overcome hurdles that would either destroy me or turn me into what I've now become.
Gandalf_The_Grey Reviewed by Gandalf_The_Grey on . Anyone else have a mental disorder??? I have schizoeffective disorder and ive had it since 2005 in 2002 i was diagnosed bi polar due to insomnia i deal with it im on meds i find it hard to find a relationship once she finds out what i am shes gone i wanna start smoking weed again soon:rastasmoke: Rating: 5