OK wat you have is anxity...my friend use to get really bad cases of that when he got high, to the point where he was gonna call the cop to take him to the hospital when he was really messed up......i think your making this worse by thinking and worrying about it so much....everytime u get high you probably anticipating that it is going to happen and get all worried until it actually happen (witch it will mind over matter)...i hope this made scense...i find when i wright allot i lose track of my point(begging high doesn't help)