Heh you know I realised that i'm not jelous over her at all, writing it really helped, i'm jelous of the fact that people who dont want/deserve it seem to get everything. I'm jelous that a violent drug addicted person could have a life, a son and a women that I would love and who doesn't even want it.

And it actually cheers me up to think of all the rows and problems they're having, not in a vindictive way but because it shows that the grass isn't always greener on the other side...