Ahh I escape to myself I guess, yeah It feels really good. I usally havent felt apart of stuff that was going on in my life for a long time. Actully for as long as I can remember before smoking Ive felt this way, a couple years ago It got worse by smokin. I Love smokin tho and Im not planning on quiting, Ive been developing new ways to enjoy with out the negative aspects. Depersonalizeation is just how ive always been. I dont hang with people that give me crap, Im a loner but I dont always stay to myself. I smoke weed now like im taking mushrooms or something I plan out my blaze session and just chill If things are really mellow. It feels really good afterwards If I get through it all chill. Im a insecure person I usally dont feel good enough for anything so smoking takes me away. But smoking and getting that good feel is a real uplifter.