Not to sound like your dad or something, but befor Id go trying to get this girl back, who treated you like she did. You should maybe think about getting your life straightened out. First, Id suggest getting a job, I mean if youd have to pawn something to go see her, sounds like that could be a problem in keeping the relationship going.

I hope everything goes alright though, and if she means that much to you, then get your woman back.