Hellp!!

[slipknotpsycho]

You are getting good advice from those that are saying a girl who breaks up by text (which BTW is so very Britney Spears kind of trashy) after 2 & 1/2 years isn't worth it and if you have to pawn something to make it to see her, then that is indicative of bigger problems. However, 2 & 1/2 years is a long time to be with someone and not get proper closure. If you don't get closure it may weigh on you heavily. Also, you might ask yourself "What If" for some time if you don't give it one more shot or do whatever it is you think you can do. It doesn't sound worth it or like it will work though. Still, I think you need to do whatever you can to see her one last time to get closure or what it is you need.

this is also very true... but it goes with virginity too.... i've went through it.... (as in, i lost my virginity to this chick, a week later everything went to shit, we broke up on very bad terms, and i spent years trying to find her... to explain my side of what happened exactly)

how about when you do go to see her... talk about you, and only you.... find out what she thinks of you and say what you think of you... watch how quick it goes straight to her.... that right there is proof she doesn't give a flying shit about you.. and should be more then enough for it to click that you're better off without her..

and dude, i know the pain, i've been down all sorts of roads... i've tortured myself over and over for ridiculous reasons... i know, by experience you're probably not just gonna decide to get over it, you're going to keep pushing for it... but just remember these words.... one day you will wake up and decide you're tired of it... even if you get back with her, it's not going to be magical or anything... there's probably going to be even more fights and arguments and more resentful feelings...

for your own sake, i hope you wake up and see the light (sorry if that sounds harsh... you've been part of this site for awhile and i would consider you a friend.... on the net or in person i'd tell you the exact same thing) quickly... i've been down that punishing road... and i promise, there is nothing down it except lots of pain, and eventually a dead end.

i completely understand how you feel, so don't think i don't. shit i still have nightmares about my wife leaving me and we've been married about 3 1/2 years... before that we were together 11 months (living together) and when things went to shit i did get pissed and kicked her out, but i hated every single second afterwards and i know what you felt.... i imagine it'd be worse because even my nightmares make me cry (yes they do) because of the pain i feel.

but in all honesty, it's obvious she doesn't care about you and she's selfish... if she was any kind of caring women/girl she would have done it in person.... not through a text message.... maybe you're not comprehending just how uncaring and dismissive that really is cuz of your pain.... but dude, that is pretty damn bad...

anyways, i wish you luck with whatever path you choose.. but for your own good i hope you don't pursue her anymore....

[Acouwaila]

thanks guys...I know you've all got experience when it comes to this shit

I had my heart broken once before when I was 16 I just cant bare it again...

I asked her today if she was completely serious (through text messages! erg)

and she said "IDK!"

which probably means "I want it to be but its hard when you keep talking to me"

but im not sure..

anyways...

I know for a fact she isnt going to attempt to call or text at all....which is kind of sad...and she told me to give her space

So now...I cant try to convince her via text, to be with me again....I cant call her because she wont answer, and she definately isnt going to call me or text...

So im thinking im fucked...I cant stand the thought of some other jack ass with her though...damn it pisses me off

Im working on getting a job...a lot harder now

I just hope if we end up ok...its before the weekend comes

[Acouwaila]

for your own sake, i hope you wake up and see the light ....

no offense taken