I understand what psteve is saying. This emotion is typical among dead-heads particularly in August.( jerry died in aug., last shows were in aug., summer tours, etc.) Unfortunatley I got on the train late compared 2 others,(I was 16 & saw the last show, I lived nearby). Im assuming you had the luxury of seeing the Dead (with Jerry) a lot more than others. And for that fact alone, your more fortunate than someone like me (since I've seen GD with jerry only once). I had to do the whole phish thing for like 8 years.(poor me-j.k.) At least we have the old tapes