I just realized you get a great deal by giving up on love. You remain miserably alone and you constantly learn, and all is done without hurting a soul but your own. I would give up on love if I didn't still think there was someone out there I could save from the pain of loneliness or someone that could save me. All this talk about liberating suffering makes me want to start a relationship with God. At least that way I'd be saving myself from eternal damnation. Whoa! Eternal suffering is life without God. Eternity is a lifetime. A lifetime of misery is hell on Earth. Damn the word of God for being so equivocal! But perhaps that's the lesson of the bible? To direct you towards love and freedom of suffering, they just call it God. What is to be said about one who perpetuates misery throughout their lifetime? Is he/she incapable of loving? Maybe I will attend the sermon today, if it will teach me to love. I don't want to be alone forever. Although the prospect of reaching genius through a lifetime of misery is enticing (I must be crazy), I realize that my misery will permeate into those around me and make them aware of their own misery. I fear if I continue along this path, all those I encounter will merely learn to grow away from me.