Granted when you do find someone to be with, Melkane it's going to twist your world upside down. Locomark touched base on it with the issues and expectations that you're probably not used to. Seems like you've dug yourself a hole. Take his advice and find a no strings relationship and if that's not your bag, then enjoy yourself until you find the right woman. Reb did the whole online dating thing and she's happy. Maybe you'll find the woman of your dreams?