Oh I hope the best for you, trust me I know what you mean.. I recently told that to myself.. Im not happy much either I just need time to myself.. weed helps me think about where Im at in life and the situation at hand.. but definitely you should take sometime to yourself to hear what life has to say lmao. you'll find that you will get to know yourself alot better.. and weed sure helps the way you think in different ways. so take care and have fun!