i can tell you from experience..that hitting yourself feeling, total anxiety...totally....that usually stems from the depression...

depression is like a chameleon..the first sign of a problem like that is thinking you dont have a problem....

and this whole pity thing here...that is what this is..not pity like oh woe is me as much as you want someone to cosign your shit (pardon the expression)...so, you cant do some things....that means you dont deserve a life? like you are less than others because you are different? come on....

so, that is my take on this.....

you either shit or get off the pot my friend....get some help or sit and wilt away like a suffocating flower....

please dont think i am shitty...but there is no sense in sugar coating things...why waste the time....be assured this is said from a place of respect, not coldness....

good luck....

princess