I don't drink b/c alcoholism runs heavily in my family. But if you have a gut feeling, then it's probably right. If it's really interfering with your life you should get urself some help asap. there's no shame in admitting you have a problem. And admitting you have a problem is the first step.

Alcoholism is so widespread that there are tons of treatment options available. Just do a little research and get yourself cleaned up!

Good luck!!!