The professional community did nothing but to insinuate it further. I will not go that route.

I don't care if you think I'm crazy as fuck. But at least if you don't have an answer or a clue, don't say "seek professional help." You make it seem like I'm a total fuck up who can't function at all. I am taking on a new position with great responsibilities, I'm going to school part-time, I'm not exactly what you call a lazy bastard or some screaming bat lunatic here. Even if I wanted to seek professional help, I don't have the goddamn time. So here it is. Every bit of insight helps. I'm not saying anyone here has the cure, to assume that is laughable. I don't expect the answer from anyone because no one has it. It's aid to seek exploration into ones self for embetterment.

If you have nothing truly constructive to say, don't say it. Seeking professional help is a cruel ass joke.