Anyone else find it sooooo fucking hard to find people who just let you be yourself? I'm not bragging, I'm just going to state a fact, here. People I work with think I'm a really funny guy. I've always got a comment that cracks people up, and pulls them out of the depression our work sometimes creates. Ever seen the show Cheers, when Norm walks in the bar? Well, it's like that when I walk in, in the morning. The problem I have, is that people have little interest in me, when I'm having a tough day. If I'm not making them laugh, I'm either ignored, or people try to get me to start saying funny stuff, like some circus monkey. It hurts, sometimes, when I think people just see me as a toy, and if I'm not entertaining them, I'm just cast aside. I'm not allowed to feel angry, sad, or upset.

I know this is hardly worthy of a real problem in life. I just wanted to give you a background, before I tell you why I like to be alone, a lot of times. It's so hard to find someone who enjoys my good side, but will be there for me, when I'm not being a clown. Someone who won't throw me away, and look for a new plaything, the first time I get angry, or sad, or depressed, but instead, let me lean on them, or leave me alone, when I need time to myself.

Thanks for listening to my bitchfest. :smokin: