cheating is a messy subject, i cheated loads on a girl that i loved more than anything. it wasn't like i went out my way to meet girls, but what ive come to realise since, was that when i was in a relationship with her i was a lot more laid back and never got anxious about talking to girls cus i knew i had a wikid girl at home. so when girls approached me i would just be chatty and have a laugh. that combined with alchol made me make some unwise descisions.

i was always honest though, about the girls i slept with. because i thought she deserved the truth and because i wanted her for once to maybe get a bit jealous and a bit mad, sorta test the boundries of our relationship. but it never happened. i think thats what i was craving more than anything a bit of reassurance she actually wanted me and that i wasn't just there for comfort.

anyway it swung back around cus she cheated on me with my best mate, this guy was like the brother i never had. it hurt so much that she could have just gone to any bar any club and picked out a guy, she was gergous and wikid to talk to.

after that things were never that same. it made me really really angry and i couldnt get over it. i eventually left her because it was ruining me more than anything else. but wheni told her the truth she threw it all back in my face saying all the times i had cheated she was at least allowed to cheat.

this really well made things apparent, becuase to forgive is to forget. and well i think she was more anoid that she hadn't left with the moral high ground as it were. but in hindsight i realise that maybe our realtionship wasnt as great as i thought and i now know when i meet a girl i really want to be with, like the girl im seeing at the moment. that i would never ever cheat.

i think it takes a real awesome person to be able to forgive properly. but being honest is a risk as they might not be that person and so they have every right to leave. but all of life is a learning curve and its just something you have to learn yourself.

anyway theres my 2 cents

peace

snow