ok well i feel stupid after thinking that I would think it's ok. so hes gone now, far away and Im aware that he is most likely getting with other girls, I dont know if he is 100% or not, but Im not stupid and I know hes 5 hours away, getting wasted around a bunch of girls who are also wasted, and either single or away from there boyfriends. we aren't technically together, and let me tell you its so painful. the thought of him being with another girl is HORRIBLE. I thought it wouldnt bother me if it didn't mean anything but it does. i look at his facebook (As lame as it sounds) and see all these girls commenting him about funny shit and there little jokes and it made me want to crawl up and die. i hate that he might be with someone who is prettier, has a better body, better in bed, anythign it hurts. i hate it.
I know when i cheated on him it was wrong, but now I see how bad it can really hurt. its killing me