Quote Originally Posted by Spoken Word
Holy shit. I thought I was the only one.
I know EXACTLY what you mean. And I hate it when bad things happen to good people.
I sometimes get panic attacks and anxiety cause of life's hardships. I start talking and thinking like you did. But in all honesty, it isn't like that.
Everyone after high school get's put in a very hard situation where, basically, you have to think and act for yourself. So the things that people are used to and avoid thinking about seem so big and important...when they really aren't.
If you think about it, the only thing that REALLY matters is your family, health and mind-state. Income is extra. Income is the stuff(money) that makes everything easier to deal with.
Sometimes weed isn't the right tool for dealing with things. Whiskey helps a lot too.

For the sake of avoiding a HUGE reply. One that most people wont even read, I'll just say this.....
Yes, like friendowl advised you to do....clear your mind.
Focus again on the present and make it the best you can.....the right now, not the before or after.......right now.

Everyone with a good heart gets far.

Easier said than done but this also helps a lot.

like I said, you aren't alone.
Wow, thanks for the kind words. :thumbsup:

Family is very improtant to me, but so is money. I hate money myself, but I have to earn it some way or another. If I don't make money, I don't have a place to live, or anything to eat, then I become homeless on the streets in the big city.

I don't want to become homeless or unsuccessful, then I feel like a failure.

Truthfully, I feel I have let my family down. I'm the only one not to graduate high school, I don't have a successful career, and a few weeks ago my dad told my mom that she shouldn't expect a grandchild from me before they die. I haven't lived up to their expectations by supporting myself, or starting a family.

You feel like shit sometimes, but my dad once told me that he doesn't care what I do for a living, as long as I'm happy. If I wanted to be a garbageman, fine, he wouldn't care, as long as I am happy.

I'll be taking everyone's advice here and I seriously need to clear my head. I have the rest of today, the entire weekend to do it, and like I said before, advised by my mom, myself and my doctor, is that I have to take prescription drugs until a healthier alternative is found, my meditating thing I have to do at least when I get up, and go to bed, and to socialize more with family and friends.

He told me exercise is a good thing too, and I have been lacking that as well.

Anyways, I've rambled on enough. My appetite is starting to come back now and it's been about 22 hours since I ate anything.

Thanks again people! You people are def. the shit of all shit<---that's a compliment. :thumbsup: