BlazinIt, hun, I'm so sorry for your loss. Your post broke my heart. I'm so sorry about the loss of your mom, but I'm glad y'all had begun to be on good terms before she left. The thing about us moms is that, even when there's friction, we know you love us. We certainly love our kids no matter what!

Good luck with the EMT work. Those car accidents will be very hard to handle, especially having had one touch your own life so closely. You'll never again look at people without seatbelts, people who choose to drive drunk, or people who don't restrain their children in child safety seats the same way.