good to hear a real world situation where marijuana helped out. It won't be the answer to all your problems but people all over have said it before and will continue to say it: "if everyone smoked weed the world would be a much happier more relaxed place to live".

I can see your reasoning for being scared and not wanting to be in conflict with the law but look at it this way; uncle sam already fucked you once so I personally would consider it fair payback. There is no repairing your mental health and the physical conditions you have traded for service in this war. I am not anti bush so to speak and I am not on a political spiel but you have to stand up for yourself and it sounds like you are.

For that I have deep respect, especially since you aren't will to move to a free for all state like CA where marijuana is practically legal. Instead you have decided to stick it out in your own state and for that I think many people will be rewarded who also have a like mind in the long run. Soon it will no longer be a "drug" but a miracle herb.