Quote Originally Posted by stinkyattic
Slip, you sound like you are craving peace and closure.
We all need that at some point in our lives.
Try to find peace in your own family and in your own heart, and in being the person that you want to be.
Closure may be harder as long as you still wonder what might have been.
But think about it... think about the chances of failure in relationships anyway. Think about how there is a time for things, and when that time is past, you must move on or risk being unable to grow. Think about how long ago that was, and how people change so much over time. Maybe all you need for closure is to finally be able to let go of the past.

Just out of curiosity, have you ever looked into taking a meditation class? It sounds like you are someone who could benefit from learning how to redirect your emotional energy into positive thinking rather than beating yourself up over things that you cannot change.
lol, pretty much what a was trying to say... but moreso.