Hey slip,

Even though I have not experienced the exact same situation you are in, I can imagine it pretty well. Of course I don't know any details or anything, but I know that deep, unresolved conflicts will never really go away until you face the situation and fix it.

Are you guys on good or neutral terms nowadays? Would it be possible for you in any way to meet her, and talk it out of your heart and make her understand that you deeply, actually care for what went through?

I don't know, I'm sorry to sound like a fucking counselor or something, aha, just trying to help you out man!