read the link. it's all there. o yeah... self mutilation is my way of dealing with 'life' (pain) ... or atleast was from 15 up until 18.. 18 plus i usually had someone to talk to but i have no one atm... i need someone to... even if it's to tell me i'm a fucking idiot for considering it.. i just need someone to listen to me... =/ and no one's around... for the first time in 4 years....