ever fuck up like REALLY horribly in your life... pertaining to relationships and even tho it's been years upon years you can't seem to let it go....? even tho both of you have famalies now, you just can't let it go... you have no real desire to go back with them or anything... you just feel things are 'unresolved' (best word i can think of) even tho everything has been thoroughly explained?


i dunno what to do anymore -.- i'ts really starting to get to me... i thought with time after i explained what happened it'd all just go away... but i still think about it... every fucking night... i know i'm going to regret this post later... but it's true ... i have no desire to be with my ex, we BOTH have families and i'm very happy with mine, i imagine she is with hers... but i fucked up seriously with her...

i hurt her badly, and deeply... i might as well of stuck a butcher knife in her chest... and i still to this day feel guilty over it, even tho she seems to be ok now.. i just want to be able to put this all behind me and move on.. but honestly don't think i'll be able to move on until i put this behind me... i can still feel it.... it's like i stuck the knife in my own chest.... i hurt too =/

we've already talked, afterwards i mean.. and we've already both came to the conclusion it was better, we've both apparently 'moved on' but i still feel the pain... i mean don't get me wrong, i have no desire to be with her... (and no i'm not just saying that cuz snookums will end up reading this) i really don't... i know lust/desire and it's not there... i just feel hurt... it's the only word to explain it.. i feel...... empty... (although i'm not cuz i hold love for my son and for snookums... so i can't be empty) i'm confused at what to do... i want to move on, but something isn't letting me...

help me
slipknotpsycho Reviewed by slipknotpsycho on . Screw ups (sorry mods, no other term for it that i know) ever fuck up like REALLY horribly in your life... pertaining to relationships and even tho it's been years upon years you can't seem to let it go....? even tho both of you have famalies now, you just can't let it go... you have no real desire to go back with them or anything... you just feel things are 'unresolved' (best word i can think of) even tho everything has been thoroughly explained? i dunno what to do anymore -.- i'ts really starting to get to me... i thought with time after i Rating: 5