As the tears fall beneath my eyes...

[BlAzInIt4:20]

You know.. funny how life works out for you, i am so depressed right now it is unreal. I just feel like running and never stopping, I am now starting to pack my shit, and i am going to move out of here. where will i go?? Im not sure right now i am just settled on getting everything in my car. i wrote a thread last night when i was drunk about what happen but i dont think it ever went through...


I came home from probably one of the best nights iv had. Angelina (bong) is gone. I thought i was just triping i was drunk off my ass, stoned. Then i go to grab my bag, and it is also gone. My grandmother came through and took everything. She said she smashed it That bong has been with me through so much shit, through my mothers death. I would also smoke with her at my own grandmothers house wer ei am at now. she never cared then.. I never ever smoked when she was awake, or around I kept that secret from her because if i didnt this is what would happen every fucking day. Some old lady going through my shit. I hope she enjoy all the porno in the dresser. Confronting her didnt do anything. It only made matters worse. So here i am feeling like shit, with tears... God just please save me....


Edit: And to top it off the one place i would want to go to i cant... i broke up with my girl yesterday.. she went through my phone and found messages from a friend.. now im not sure if i even still have a best friend... if i could go back in time and change some things i so would...that feeling of being lonely is now creeping up on me...

Edit2-And so you guys know my grandmother is the type the whole family talks about. the one that spoils everything. She lives her life her way the way she wants. I would understand if she just asked me to no longer smoke here thats fine.. id rather smoke on a walkk anyways. but im gone now.. what will i tell my sister?? oh god things just keep pilling up..

how the fuck do you spell pillling?? fuck it

BlAzInIt4:20 Reviewed by BlAzInIt4:20 on 06-24-2007. As the tears fall beneath my eyes... You know.. funny how life works out for you, i am so depressed right now it is unreal. I just feel like running and never stopping, I am now starting to pack my shit, and i am going to move out of here. where will i go?? Im not sure right now i am just settled on getting everything in my car. i wrote a thread last night when i was drunk about what happen but i dont think it ever went through... I came home from probably one of the best nights iv had. Angelina (bong) is gone. I thought i Rating: 5

[Nochowderforyou]

Riiiiight. I think I'll go watch a moo-vie.

[BlAzInIt4:20]

i dont know about you.. but i dont have much i never have.. but i will some day. I am going to continue packings.. i seriously didnt need your righttttt comment.... righttttt back at cha buddy.. later

[l1nk]

Sheesh that sucks big time... but hey you'll eventually get over it, and you know what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger.

[Nochowderforyou]

So you're leaving because your grandma took your bong and bag?

Not a good reason to leave. That just shows she cares, and that's a lot more than what most people have.

Get a new bong, a new bag, and find a better hiding spot. You don't think this is slightly irrational to leave home over marijuana?

You'll get over it.

[BlAzInIt4:20]

its not the weed.. i know i can get more, its the fact she invaded me more then twice now. went through all my shit, left it messy as hell. She could of just talked to me like a person. And i would of said okay im sorry, it wont happen again, still have my bong just relocate it. I should of never moved back home... just closer to home i guess. Im going to save up some money and get my own place. I just wish she accepted me for who i am, and realizes that im doing well. And im far from rock bottom. She also said its not the weed its the fact that its illegal, and i understand that, like i said... it wasn't just about the weed.. I just smoked my last joint.. calm me down.. and made me think about everything.. crazy what you think when your mad....

[Spoken Word]

That's not depressed. Although losing your mother is. But even that is just the way life works
Marijuana and homes with authority sometimes don't work well together. But, luckily for you, the choices are simple.

Lie better
Stop smoking
live on your own.

i'm facing similar trials right now.

it's life bro.

[BlAzInIt4:20]

ummm... why does everyone always insist im a bro??? check the profile..

[bong_man]

yo blazin, it might be a better idea to put up with her shite for a week or two until your 100% certian of what you want to do and have everything planned out properly. Getting up and leaving like that might just make things alot worse for you, I know it will be a cunt having to put up with that shit but who knows what you'll have to put up with if you just leave now

[BlAzInIt4:20]

:thumbsup: i hear you...