i have been prescribed so many different anti-depressants, and it's gotten to the point where i just don't even take them anymore because i hate the way they make me feel - they make me feel flat, no emotion. i have no ups, i have no downs. i do not get happy. i do not get sad. and that sucks. i would like to have a little emotion in my life and be able to enjoy things, ya know?

so i quit taking my meds, and instead of taking my meds for the past year, i have been smoking. i feel like with the smoking it helps with my depression and bi polar tendencies (my doc is in the process of diagnosing me with that). when i smoke weed, i actually have ups and downs and am able to experience emotion. without weed or meds i sink into such a depression that i am extremely apathetic and don't give a shit about anything. and my energy is drained. so for me, i've found that smoking weed is what truly helps my depression, not the anti-depressants